Tuesday, August 26, 2014

10 Months 8/26/14

Dear Timothy,
You are 10 months old little man, double digits! It's so exciting to see you grow, but I still can hardly believe you are becoming such a big boy! You are such an incredible joy to me, and I love being your Mama so much. I thank God every day that he gave us you!

This month was so much fun Timothy, and we really did a lot of summery things! We started things off by going to the beach for the first time on your 9 month birthday. We drove to Point Judith, RI and went to Scarborough Beach with Mimi and Papa. That is the beach that I went to when I was growing up, and it was a lot of fun to be able to take you there! You loved the sand and the ocean, and wanted to crawl all over! I think your favorite part was kick, kick, kicking in the waves. You were so brave and went into the ocean with me, and you loved it. You were not quite sure about the saltiness of the water and kept licking your lips, which was so funny! That night we went to Providence and saw the Fires on the Water and had some yummy food. It was fun, but you were so tired from a long day at the beach so it was a little challenging. The next day, we got up super early to drive home and see your friend Azzy get dedicated. We sure do love our mom group friends! You had your 9 month pediatrician appointment and dropped to the 15th percentile for height and weight, you are such a peanut! This time, you really hated your shots, and got very upset! I think it is because you are more aware! After that, we had lunch and a nice walk with Mama's friend Beth.

We also celebrated Uncle Chrissy's 30th birthday, and you had a great time at his party! The next day we went back to Point Judith for the 3rd annual lobster bake. You loved seeing Mama's cousins and aunt and uncle, and you LOVED your first time having clam cakes from Aunt Carries! You didn't like the water as much this time, but did have a ball in your little pool. You were a bit scared of the live lobsters, but had fun eating with the whole family!

A few days later, your Auntie Sarah and cousin Miriam came to CT and we went to a youth group reunion at the Ragan's house. I think your favorite part was Ryan's guitar playing! The next day, we went swimming at the Burke's house with all of your favorite ladies and you had a blast! That night we got ice cream at Charlie's and you couldn't get enough of it! The next morning, we went to a music class with Sarah and Miriam at the Newtown library, and I could not get over how much you loved it! You are so into music, and you dance up a storm anytime it is on! That weekend we went backpacking (which Mama already wrote about), and then we went home for a few days.
The next week, we headed back to Southbury to say goodbye to Mimi and Papa before their trip, and we also started physical therapy for your feet (when you pull up, you stand very high on your tippy toes, and sometimes even stand with your toes curled under - thankfully you are already improving so much with that!) and met your new friend Luca, who is one of your daddy's best friend's baby! That night, we went to Rich's (your Uncle John's first time!) and you got to try it for the first time too! You absolutely loved it, and got frustrated with me if I didn't get it to your mouth fast enough!

The next day I left you for the 2nd time at night to go to Becca and Patrick's welcome party, and then again the night after for their wedding. Friday night was tough for you, as you were asleep when I left and woke up and I wasn't there - you had a rough time. The night of the wedding you did great, and only cried a little before you fell asleep. Thanks to Auntie Lisa, Auntie Joanne and Uncle Ricky for taking such great care of you!

We had a fun day of hanging out with Auntie Sarah, Miriam and Granmy - complete with playing in your playroom, walking with Aunt Pam, playing in the bouncy house, and dinner at Grammy and Grandpa's. The next day we had to say goodbye to your aunt and cousin, and we headed down to Westbrook to hang out with the Burke clan for the day. You had a great day splashing in the water and snoozing in the ergo. That evening we headed to Charlestown, RI to have dinner and stay with the Wojdyl's. The next day we hung out on the beach for the day, and you napped for a bit in the BOB. This time you loved the sand and water again and had fun playing with Gabrielle. The ride home that evening was not fun, however, and you cried for 1 1/2 hrs in the car - you can really sustain your car crying when you want to!
The next morning you had your very first paid babysitter while Mama went to hear Auntie Sarah Kate's teacher of the year speech. You stayed with Quinlan for about 3 hours and did a great job! I was so proud of you little man, I know that wasn't easy for you!
We rounded out your 9th month with some swimming with Auntie Katie, Gwen, Owen, Liam, Kristin and Maddie, pizza and ice cream with the Mulcaheys for Uncle Peter's birthday, church in the park, a hike with the Hines, Mama did the ALS ice bucket challenge and you cried, and we had dinner with Mimi and Papa.
It was a busy, fun, and challenging month. There were a lot of firsts this month that were very hard without your dad, but I know he is so proud of you too!
Some other new things this month:
Getting very good at pulling up on everything you can.
You are able to stand unassisted for a second or two.
Walking assisted.
Cruising.
You finally got your first teeth, and got 5 pretty much all at once! (This has been very hard, as you have been cranky and sleeping has been even more hard than it usually is for you).
You are still not eating very much, in regards to solids, and even if we find something you love I'm lucky to get 4-5 bites in!
Favorite foods are: Pizza, ice cream (aren't I a great mom?), hummus, guacamole, zucchini, peaches, peanut butter, cream cheese, apples,  bananas, peas, corn.
Not so favorite foods: Hamburgers, strawberries, yogurt.

I love you so much little man, and can't wait to see what this next month will bring!

I love you always and forever,
Mama

Monday, August 11, 2014

Backpacking with Babies - Adventures for Tim



While Sarah and Miriam were in town, we decided that the sisters Hine and the babies should go on a backpacking adventure. We were not sure where we wanted to go, and had really planned anything by the day we decided to go.
Sarah and Li made some phone calls and realized that many campsites were full for the night, and finally Sarah found one on the MA/VT border that was supposed to be an easy hike in and beautiful. It was going to take about 2 1/2 hours to get there, so we packed up as quickly as possible while wrangling our little ones and got on the road.
Now, if I'm being totally honest, I was apprehensive and pretty much terrified of going on this trip - I get really nervous at night outside and in the dark, and hadn't done anything like this in years, and never without Tim. However, I really wanted to try and get Timothy started early in this life that his dad so loved, so we gave it a shot.
We arrived at the trailhead around 6:15, and were on the trail by 6:45. It was supposed to take 10-15 minutes for the first lean to, and another 15 or so to the next one if that one was full. We had quite a difficult time finding them, and finally find some people that directed us to the first one, which was occupied. We had to hike directly uphill to reach the second one - by this time it was getting pretty dark, and we were tired (and I was getting very anxious). It definitely took longer than 15 minutes to reach the lean to, but we finally found it! After setting up camp and having a quick dinner, Sarah and Lisa and Miriam set out to hang our food in the trees, while Timothy fell asleep and I sat with him.  He was exhausted from hardly napping all day, and it being after 10 PM by the time he went to sleep. Miss Miriam was a trooper and stayed up after 11 to help put the food up in a tree!
We didn't get a whole lot of sleep that evening, as sleeping with a baby in a sleeping bag in the woods is about as restful as it sounds. T woke up a lot, I was restless because I was anxious about him/bears, and just the normal being outside noises that wake you up. Everyone was up and at 'em by 6:30, and we had breakfast and packed up the camp site.
We then went on a short hike uphill to see if we could get some views. We didn't, but the kiddos got a quick snooze before we headed back down to the river. The hike back down was interesting to see in daylight and we were all quite grateful to have remained safe the night before!
We found a watering hole that we had heard was wonderful, and we took the kids in for a quick dip - Miriam loved it and sat and played with the water, and T was happy to kick his toes in. It was pretty frigid, but super refreshing to dunk ourselves in after hiking!
After out swim, we hiked out to the car and headed home. It was a very successful first backpacking trip with babies!

I'm really glad we went and it will be so fun to tell Timothy all about his first camping experience when he is older, but I have to say it was really hard to do something that I have only ever done with Tim, without him. I think we all very much felt his absence, but know he is very proud of his wife, son, sisters, and niece for carrying on his adventurous spirit!

Saturday, July 26, 2014

9 Months Old 7/26/14

9 Months Old

Dear Timothy,
You have officially been on the outside as long as you were on the inside - that is just pure craziness to me. I'm so thankful for you little man, and I'm proud to be your Mama.

This month we have been very busy indeed! We have had quite a few firsts, and have been doing our best to enjoy the summer months that are all too fleeting.

At the end of June, I went to my first wedding since you were born to celebrate Vanessa and Simon. It was a lovely wedding, and a lot of fun too! It was local, and you stayed with Mimi and Papa. I came back to you between the ceremony and reception, but all said and done I left you for 7 whole hours at a stretch which is the longest I have ever gone without seeing you. I hear you asked for me a couple times, saying "Mama, mamamamamama", but otherwise did great. You only had about 1/4 of an ounce from your bottle, but slept most of the time that I was gone. I talked about you to anyone that would listen, and checked my phone a million times. It was really hard to leave you, but a good and healthy time for me to spend with some wonderful friends and family.

A few days after the wedding, we packed up and headed out for our second trip to Colorado. The night before, we stayed at the Perreaults, and Papa drove us to the airport bright and early. Clare and you did wonderfully on the flight, and we arrived in Boulder by noon. We spent the afternoon hanging out, and went to the farmer's market for dinner. The next day, we went for a walk and then went to my old gym to go swimming. You had such a great time splashing in the pool! That night we went to a farm and had pizza and wine for dinner as a thunderstorm skirted us. The next day was the Fourth of July so we woke up early and headed up to Vail (with a quick stop for bagels and coffee at Moes and Vic's) to meet the LeWinters and Dentons! When we arrived, we ran into the family that I used to nanny for, which was really fun! Then we spent a few hours watching the parade and hanging out with all the babies. We went back to the Dentons after and had a BBQ for Auntie Emma's birthday. The next day we went for a hike in Edwards and headed back to Boulder for pizza back at Colleen and Rod's. The next day we went for another walk and went to Pearl street for lunch and a beer at Mountain Sun! That night we had dinner at the Bolls and it was a lovely night. The next day, you woke up with a fever of 103.8 and threw up all over me. Thankfully, Auntie Colleen is a pediatric nurse practitioner and took care of you before we went for a hike in the Flatirons. We spent the rest of the day resting and had dinner on Pearl Street. You were a sick little man, but thankfully woke up the next morning and your fever had broken just in time to fly home. It was a great trip, with the best friends. You did suffer from some extreme separation anxiety from me the whole time we were there which made it a bit difficult, but otherwise a great trip.
The day after our trip, you had a rash all over you, so I took you to the pediatrician and turns out you had Hand Foot Mouth Disease - explains that high fever! Thankfully, it was mild case and you weren't ever that sick except the day with the fever.

Another big thing that happened this month is that your playroom got carpet! You have been having such a fun time playing with your toys and crawling all over the place. Whenever we head toward the stairs now, you get so excited to go play! You have been pulling up on toys, and well, pretty much anything that you can. You are still a little unsteady doing that, but are getting good at it and even have taken a few cruising steps. You are becoming such a big boy!

We took you for a hike for the first time in the big backpack, the first time you loved it for awhile, but then got really upset. I think you were unsure of how to fall asleep in it and were tired! The next time we went, you were happy as a clam the whole 1 1/2 hike and pulled my hair! Another hiking first was that I nursed you in the Ergo while hiking one day - you loved it!

We went to the zoo for the first time, with the Perreaults. We went to the Beardsley Zoo, and you sat forward facing in your stroller for the first time. You loved it - you just chilled while checking out the animals. There was a carousel at the zoo, and we tried it out as well. Unfortunately, you were not a big fan. As soon as it started moving you launched yourself into my arms and clung on for dear life!
Later on that day, you also went to your first concert. We went with Auntie Nora and Uncle Joe to see Jeremy Camp at Walnut Hill. It was a really fantastic concert! You stayed awake for the opening act, and fell asleep during Jeremy Camp's first song and then slept for the rest of the concert (and it was LOUD little man!)

This month we had some pretty cool God nods. I was really struggling this month with missing your dad, and being very upset that I didn't get to hear him say he loves you - it just didn't seem fair. So, after a week of praying about it and being upset, we went for a hike at a place that I used to go with your dad a lot. I had only been once since he died, and it was the day before you were born. This time when we went, carved into the bridge over a little waterfall were he words "I love you baby". They were definitely not there last time we went, and it made me smile.

The other one happened at the Jeremy Camp concert. I had prayed that I would hear from God that night and he really delivered! First Jeremy Camp was describing his son and used the term warrior, which is obviously a special word to us now. Then, he sang one of his songs called There Will Be A Day which we had played at Tim's service. Finally, after the concert, a man around my age came up to me with tears in his eyes and said, "Your husband was here tonight. God wanted me to tell you that." I collapsed in tears, and praised God for being so good to us!

New foods this month: pancake, eggplant, pasta, meatball, plum, goat cheese, provolone cheese.

You have in literally the last few days of the month started wanting to eat more. It is still just a little, but better than nothing!

I love you little monkey, the joy you bring to me is indescribable. I still can hardly believe you are your daddy and my baby. It still doesn't seem real sometimes!

Love you always,
Mama

Tim,
This was another hard month babe, I can not hide how hard it is that you are not here. I love you always and forever.






Thursday, June 26, 2014

8 Months Old 6/26/14

Dear Timothy,

You are 8 months old little man! You have been growing and learning so much in the last month, I can hardly believe it. Sometimes I look at you and feel like you are looking more little boy than baby, and other times you still seem like such a peanut. I hope you stay more peanutty for a little while!

This month has been busy and hectic, but a lot of fun as well. We celebrated your first Memorial Day with Mimi and Papa and hot dogs on the new grill, and then headed over to the Burkes for a BBQ. That day, you decided that eating your feet was the cool new thing to do, as well as launch yourself at a bag of chips on the patio table.

We've had a lot of trouble sleeping this month, for some reason you just aren't very into it lately! At night, we are lucky if you sleep more than 2 hours at a stretch. The past few nights, you have been up almost every hour. Thankfully, you usually go back to sleep within 5 minutes - it is still tough though, and really hard not to have your Dad here as a support when middle of the night wake ups become really not fun.

This month you also learned how to crawl! The official crawling date was 6/5/14 You scooted a little before actually crawling, but you pretty much went from being on all fours to crawling very quickly! You crawl with determination, and are particularly quick if you are crawling towards something that is dangerous or something that you shouldn't have your hands on! It is so fun to see you learn this new skill, and I love how proud of yourself you get when you reach something that you want. It was another milestone without Tim though, and made me really sad. I'm certain Daddy is super proud of your new moving skills bug!

You also discovered pulling off hats/sunglasses this month, and think it is the most hilarious thing to ever happen. You are even a little sneaky and will pretend to cuddle with me, just so you can pull off my sunglasses. You are very pleased when you fool me and off they go! I love hearing your big belly laughs when you pull it off!

We celebrated Clare Bear's birthday this month, and you tried guacamole that Uncle Joe made - and loved it! You also tried going in the pool for the first time at her party, and did not enjoy that one bit. I think you were tired, hungry, and overwhelmed - whatever it was, you cried immediately and we lasted in there for about a minute before it was evident you wanted out!

We got through our first Father's Day since you were born. It was something that I was dreading very much, and while I did have a decent day, overall it was really hard. I really would have loved to spend it with Daddy, making coffee and pancakes, going for a hike, making something yummy for dinner and just hanging out with our little family. I miss your dad every single second, but that day was a huge punch in the stomach. I did enjoy spending time with my dad, and you tried yogurt for the first time (not a fan!).

We met another mama and little mister who lost their husband and daddy before he was born as well. We have been talking for awhile, but finally were able to meet. It was difficult, but also so good to meet them, and I am looking forward to getting together again soon. I'm pretty sure your daddies helped us find one another!

We hung out for brunch with our AM/FM group, and it was so great to see them after going over a month without them!

You got to hang out with Grammy while Mama, Auntie Lisa, Auntie Nora, and Auntie Sarah Kate got to have a relaxing spa afternoon, and had dinner at The Foundry. It was a really nice evening to kick off summer.

We spent the day with Mimi and Papa, while they helped us get things ready for our downstairs projects that will hopefully be ready within the next month!

We went to Boston for Haili's bridal shower, and you slept the whole way there and home! It was incredible, and a true God send! We also got to see Annie for dinner, and we took you to the Rainforest Cafe for the first time. You loved it, and were wide eyed the whole time, especially checking out the fish.

Our whole downstairs was painted and looks incredible, thanks to the Multaris! We are very grateful for their hard work!

We tried the pool again at mom group, and you had a blast! You were like a little fish and didn't want to get out! You tried to "swim" while I was holding you, and were splashing like crazy! I'm so excited you got over your fear - next up, the ocean!

You still are not a huge fan of eating solids, but much prefer small pieces of my food than purees when you do eat. Someday you will enjoy food as much as your dad and I do!

And perhaps my favorite part of this month is that you say "Mama" now. Usually it is when you are upset or want something, but I will take it!

Likes: Cuddling, crawling, playing, pulling up on dangerous things, putting everything in your mouth, baths, water, our puppy, being outside

Dislikes: Sleeping for long stretches, car rides, most solids, loud and sudden noises

New foods: Guacamole, yogurt, peaches, zucchini, potato, chicken, grapes, steak, asparagus

I love you so much little man!
Love you always,
Mama

Tim, this month has been especially hard without you. I hate navigating life without you, and I miss you immensely. I am so grateful that I will see you again, but sometimes that feels so long that it is unbearable. I hope you know how much we love you, and that I'm doing my best to raise our son the way WE would have.

Monday, May 26, 2014

7 Months Old! 5/26/14

Dear Timothy,
Your 6th month flew by Lovebug! I couldn't believe it when I realized it was almost time for your 7 month pictures. It has been a month with lots more firsts, and I think this month was one with the most changes so far!

On the day you turned 6 months old, there was a gorgeous rainbow outside of our house. I'm pretty sure that was a gift from God for your half birthday! We also had a nice dinner with Mimi and Papa.

You had your 6 month checkup this month, and you were 15 pounds 11.5 ounces (25th%) and 26 3/4 inches (50th%). The doctor said you were perfect and healthy! You had to get 5 shots and one oral vaccine, and you screamed! However, you calmed down quickly once I fed you! When I was putting you in the car seat, I accidentally pinched you between your thumb and first finger on your left hand. I felt so bad!

We went to the daffodil fields a few days later with Grammy and Nan, and had lunch afterwards in Litchfield. It was a lot of car time for you, but you did really well!

That Saturday, 4/29/14, I tried to give you solid food for the first time. I had made you sweet potato purée the night before, and to be honest I was very sad about starting solids - I even shed some tears. Another milestone without your dad, and this was a big one for us! We tried solids for breakfast, and you were not quite sure about them! You didn't hate them, but you were not very excited. It is still that was now, except for one thing that you can't get enough of! So far you have tried: Sweet potatoes (don't love), avocado (tolerate), peas (ok), apples (don't really like), banana (ok, like the best), rice cereal (hated), a mix of sweet potatoes, mango and millet (ok), mix of sweet potatoes and banana (like ok), baby mum mum (like), and cantaloupe (love). Cantaloupe is your favorite, and you just suck out all the juice! It's so cute!

You also had your first (2) non-well visit doctor appointments.  I brought you in because where I pinched your finger got infected (the skin broke and I didn't realize it, bad mama!), so I took you to get it checked out. You were prescribed an antibiotic, but it did not go well. You wouldn't keep it down, and gagged like crazy. I was a bit of a wreck, because at the same time you got another cold, and did not sleep well. Auntie Katie came over and helped, and eventually we got back to the doctor, and instead of antibiotic we tried warm compress, a topical, and bandaid. It cleared up in 1 1/2 days! It was perfect. Unfortunately, your cold didn't get better that fast and both of us did not sleep for about a week. It was easily the most difficult week since you were a newborn - I was beyond exhausted! It was only made more difficult not having Tim here, even though I had plenty of support it just wasn't the same. Thankfully, your Auntie Nikki is a lifesaver, and doesn't mind being bothered for days on end with all of the crazy questions I have on what is going on with you!

On May 18th, we had your baby dedication. It was such a special day, where many of our family and friends came to church to watch you get dedicated to The Lord. Auntie Nora and SK sang Glorious Unfolding and I don't think there was a dry eye in the place. Mimi and Papa had a party to celebrate afterwards at their house, and it was a beautiful sunny day. I am so overjoyed that you will grow up in the church, and have such support to grow and be the man of God I know you will be. I'm so excited for you little man! It was truly difficult to not have your dad up there with us though, and his absence was very hard on us. I just know he was looking down and so proud of you that day!

Some other things that happened during your sixth month:
*We got ants in the house - Papa came and helped us spray to get rid of them
*We celebrated Gabrielle's 10th birthday
*Celebrated my first Mother's Day (a very difficult day)
*We had bees in the house, and hired an exterminator
*Our roof leaked, still haven't done anything about it!
*Celebrated Maddie's first birthday
*Went to the park with Mom group
*First time to Pepe's in New Haven with Auntie Katie
*Celebrated Sue and Sharon's retirement
*Celebrated Auntie Sarah Kate being named Region 15's Teacher of the Year!
*Had your 6 month photos taken by 47Moments


Your milestones:
First solids
Can sit unassisted for awhile
Can support full weight on your legs
Love being in the crawling position
Scoot forward when on belly (sometimes)
Rolling like crazy
Napped without me for the first time since you were born (25 min)

I love you so much, Timothy Reeves! You truly make my heart smile. You are looking more and more like your daddy every single day, it is truly shocking how much you resemble him. It's really unfair that he doesn't get to be here for all of this, but I'm working on trusting God to fill in the gap.

Love you always and forever,
Mama


Saturday, April 26, 2014

6 Months! Half a year! 4/26/14

6 Months

Dear Timothy,
You are SIX months old today, where in the world did the time go? I can hardly believe that an entire half of a year has gone by since I first held you in my arms. I absolutely love watching you grow and learn, and this month has been no exception!

In the last month a lot has happened, and we have also just had a lot of relaxing days. I have to say, the days when it's just us, those are the best. I get lots of snuggles, smiles, and laughs!

This month we:
Celebrated Auntie Lisa (and Auntie Sarah!) on her birthday by watching Frozen, going for a hike, and having dinner.
You sat in your high chair for the first time, and absolutely love it!
You used your jolly jumper for the first time, and enjoy it, but you are a trying to figure out how to jump - you mostly spin in circles.
The 2nd and 3rd of April came around, and Mama had to force herself to get out of bed - thank you for helping me do that little man!
We went to a Spark of Life grief retreat, and I spent the most time away from you that I have in your whole life! It was super hard for me, but also a really helpful weekend. I'm sure that we made some lifelong friends!
We had a bonfire to celebrate your Daddy, and lots of friends came and we burned several (6 I think!) Christmas trees. We have some wonderful friends!
On the 7th, we had breakfast and hung out with your Aunties, Li, Nora and Sarah Kate and Anna. We also had pizza with our family and just hung out. It was a cruddy day, but surprisingly not as bad as others have been.
We visited Gainfield for the first time, and Mama got to show you off to all her teacher friends! I'm pretty sure you were the hit of the day!
We went to Riches for the first time with Lisa, Nora, Joe and Clare. I think you were jealous that Clare got to try the ice cream and you didn't. Just wait til summer Lovebug!
We bought and set up patio furniture and a grill on the most beautiful weekend we have had so far, thanks to Mimi, Papa and Uncle Alex.
We met more neighbors!
We celebrated MaMa's birthday with the Burke clan.
We went for a long hike with Auntie Emma and Jack, and made another trip to Riches.
You met Jill for the first time!
You got your third cold.
We celebrated your first Easter weekend, complete with making a Pizzagaina with my Aunt Joanne, dinner on Saturday with the Hines and Nan, and  on Easter Day a service at church and my cousin's house for dinner.
Finally, at the end of the month your Auntie Lisa moved out and we have been figuring out how to be our own little family. It's going well, but Mama gets lonely at night because that was when your Dad used to get home from work, and now it is just us. It hit me the other day while hiking with you that we will never hike together as a family, something I had looked forward to for several years. I couldn't wait to see your Dad carrying you in a backpack, with McKinley running about and me just watching it all. It seems so cruel sometimes that we don't get that little one, but I know he is with us wherever we go so I try to focus on that.

This month you:
Have been super snuggly - I think you are hurting because of your teeth.
Are biting anything you get your hands on - and that includes your toes!
Have been rolling more and more!
Love to jump and bounce.
You are becoming more stable sitting with assistance. Sometimes you can balance on your own for a minute!
Love music, especially Wheels on the Bus, we have started singing our own version (thanks Auntie Li!) when we are hiking.
Are getting a little better in the car, but still scream frequently.
Love to do the banana pose when lying on your back! You can hold it forever, I've tried to hold it for as long as you do and I am not even close.
You smile and giggle all the time!
You hug me :)

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

5 Months 3/26/14

3/26/14 
Dear Timothy,
Today you are 5 months old. I am kind of in shock, because for some reason this 5th month of your life truly flew by - must have been our first vacation together that made it go so quickly!
We had a big month little man, and I loved every minute with you! 
We spent a night having pizza with Uncle Chris and Aunt Nikki, and they loved snuggling with their favorite little guy! We also got to hang out with Uncle Nate for a bit, and that was a lot of fun!
We then left on your very first vacation, to Colorado! I have been so excited to bring you to the place that your Dad and I made our first home together after we were married. It was such a special time for us, and we loved our life out there so much - I loved being able to share that with you, our son.
After waking up VERY early, we headed to the airport for your first flight! Unfortunately due to a very minor plane issue, we had to de board and ended up having a 4 hour delay. You were such a little trooper and did a wonderful job even though it ended up being such a long day for you! In what can only be described as a God nod, our pilot was the dad of a childhood friend of mine and we spent some time with him during our delay. It was so nice to have him as our pilot, because your Mama is terrified of flying and it made me feel much better to have someone that I knew up there! Finally, we took off and you pretty much slept, ate and played for the whole flight. You did, however, pee through TWO outfits and therefore had to wear only a onesie until we got our luggage! Before we left the plane, we got to take pictures with you in the cockpit wearing the captains hat! So fun! 
We went straight to Mama and Dad's very favorite brewery in Boulder, Mountain Sun, to celebrate your Dad's birthday. All of our wonderful friends came to be with us, and it was so much fun! Auntie Emma even had them rename a beer the Hoppy Hiney Amber Ale in honor of your Dad. It was such a sweet gesture, and I am sure he was smiling! I'm so grateful to our friends for helping us celebrate Daddy, because it was a difficult day for me. I miss him so much, and wanted so badly to be able to make him a birthday Rice Krispie treat cake like I used to. Instead, we were able to be loved by our friends, meet Baby Jack (the sweetest little new friend of yours), and eat good food and drink great beer. 
We went back to Colleen and Rod's and finally were able to get some rest after our very long day! 
Over the course of our trip we:
Had amazing homemade lattes courtesy of Rod
Had amazing homemade dinners, wine, and cocktails courtesy of Rod and Colleen
You rolled from back to belly on our first day 
Took walks with Auntie Lisa
Hung out with Alison, M, and E
You and I visited the Valmont bike park where Dad taught me to mountain bike
Hang out with the Paisleys
Amazing meals at Oak
Spend time walking on Pearl Street on beautiful 70 degree days
Hang out with Auntie Emma, Uncle Adam, Baby Jack, and fam
Hang out with Auntie Sarah and Miriam
Go to church at All Souls, our old church and have lunch with Lora and the Bohnets
Lunch with Lora at Avery
Quality time with Colleen, Rod, and Janie
And probably the biggest thing for Mama, you and I hiked Anemone. You see, little man, Anemone was the first hike your Dad and I did on our own when we moved to Colorado. It quickly became our favorite local hike, because we could walk there from our apartment. It was a beautiful hike, with views of the continental divide. Your dad and I used to go at least once a week, and we spent so much time talking about our future on those hikes. We had such wonderful plans - for ourselves, for our future family, for YOU. Hiking there with you Timothy was wonderful, emotional and hard. Dad should have been able to do that in person with us. It completely sucks that he wasn't able to be there with us. I could almost see him holding you as he climbed up that beautiful trail, smiling and just enjoying time with his son. It was a powerful time for me, and I cried, so so much baby boy, but it was such an honor to take you there. I can't wait until we can go back there, and go back to Coloado.
After sleeping your way through our entire flight home (and crying through the whole car ride from the airport), we were back! I was happy to be home, but I wild be lying if I didn't say it was super hard knowing we were coming home and your Dad wouldn't be there. 

Other things that you did this month were:
Discovering your feet
Got your second cold, and gave it to me!
Are going through a growth spurt, because your sleep has been difficult!
Went to the nursery at church for the first time for 25 minutes
And I left you for the first time for 35 minutes. It felt like an eternity! I really don't like leaving you, even for a second, but I know it is good for both of us!

Mama also made the decision, with lots of prayer, that it is time for you, McKinley and I to try this whole family thing on our own. It is going t be lonely and hard, but I know we can do it with God's help, and I'm sure your Dad is looking out for us too!

The next few weeks, they are going to be tough my sweet little warrior. We are going to have to lean hard on our amazing God to get us through. I know that the days after the one year mark are going to be just as hard, but for some reason they terrify me. Thank God for you, Timothy, because you bring a smile to my face and give me a reason to keep going when I just want to fall apart. 

I can't stop thinking about how much I wish I could see your Dad hold you, and laugh at your adorable laughs and smiles. I know he is doing so from heaven, and I know he loves you and is so proud of you. 

I love you always and forever little man!
Love, Mama