Wednesday, March 26, 2014

5 Months 3/26/14

Dear Timothy,
Today you are 5 months old. I am kind of in shock, because for some reason this 5th month of your life truly flew by - must have been our first vacation together that made it go so quickly!
We had a big month little man, and I loved every minute with you! 
We spent a night having pizza with Uncle Chris and Aunt Nikki, and they loved snuggling with their favorite little guy! We also got to hang out with Uncle Nate for a bit, and that was a lot of fun!
We then left on your very first vacation, to Colorado! I have been so excited to bring you to the place that your Dad and I made our first home together after we were married. It was such a special time for us, and we loved our life out there so much - I loved being able to share that with you, our son.
After waking up VERY early, we headed to the airport for your first flight! Unfortunately due to a very minor plane issue, we had to de board and ended up having a 4 hour delay. You were such a little trooper and did a wonderful job even though it ended up being such a long day for you! In what can only be described as a God nod, our pilot was the dad of a childhood friend of mine and we spent some time with him during our delay. It was so nice to have him as our pilot, because your Mama is terrified of flying and it made me feel much better to have someone that I knew up there! Finally, we took off and you pretty much slept, ate and played for the whole flight. You did, however, pee through TWO outfits and therefore had to wear only a onesie until we got our luggage! Before we left the plane, we got to take pictures with you in the cockpit wearing the captains hat! So fun! 
We went straight to Mama and Dad's very favorite brewery in Boulder, Mountain Sun, to celebrate your Dad's birthday. All of our wonderful friends came to be with us, and it was so much fun! Auntie Emma even had them rename a beer the Hoppy Hiney Amber Ale in honor of your Dad. It was such a sweet gesture, and I am sure he was smiling! I'm so grateful to our friends for helping us celebrate Daddy, because it was a difficult day for me. I miss him so much, and wanted so badly to be able to make him a birthday Rice Krispie treat cake like I used to. Instead, we were able to be loved by our friends, meet Baby Jack (the sweetest little new friend of yours), and eat good food and drink great beer. 
We went back to Colleen and Rod's and finally were able to get some rest after our very long day! 
Over the course of our trip we:
Had amazing homemade lattes courtesy of Rod
Had amazing homemade dinners, wine, and cocktails courtesy of Rod and Colleen
You rolled from back to belly on our first day 
Took walks with Auntie Lisa
Hung out with Alison, M, and E
You and I visited the Valmont bike park where Dad taught me to mountain bike
Hang out with the Paisleys
Amazing meals at Oak
Spend time walking on Pearl Street on beautiful 70 degree days
Hang out with Auntie Emma, Uncle Adam, Baby Jack, and fam
Hang out with Auntie Sarah and Miriam
Go to church at All Souls, our old church and have lunch with Lora and the Bohnets
Lunch with Lora at Avery
Quality time with Colleen, Rod, and Janie
And probably the biggest thing for Mama, you and I hiked Anemone. You see, little man, Anemone was the first hike your Dad and I did on our own when we moved to Colorado. It quickly became our favorite local hike, because we could walk there from our apartment. It was a beautiful hike, with views of the continental divide. Your dad and I used to go at least once a week, and we spent so much time talking about our future on those hikes. We had such wonderful plans - for ourselves, for our future family, for YOU. Hiking there with you Timothy was wonderful, emotional and hard. Dad should have been able to do that in person with us. It completely sucks that he wasn't able to be there with us. I could almost see him holding you as he climbed up that beautiful trail, smiling and just enjoying time with his son. It was a powerful time for me, and I cried, so so much baby boy, but it was such an honor to take you there. I can't wait until we can go back there, and go back to Coloado.
After sleeping your way through our entire flight home (and crying through the whole car ride from the airport), we were back! I was happy to be home, but I wild be lying if I didn't say it was super hard knowing we were coming home and your Dad wouldn't be there. 

Other things that you did this month were:
Discovering your feet
Got your second cold, and gave it to me!
Are going through a growth spurt, because your sleep has been difficult!
Went to the nursery at church for the first time for 25 minutes
And I left you for the first time for 35 minutes. It felt like an eternity! I really don't like leaving you, even for a second, but I know it is good for both of us!

Mama also made the decision, with lots of prayer, that it is time for you, McKinley and I to try this whole family thing on our own. It is going t be lonely and hard, but I know we can do it with God's help, and I'm sure your Dad is looking out for us too!

The next few weeks, they are going to be tough my sweet little warrior. We are going to have to lean hard on our amazing God to get us through. I know that the days after the one year mark are going to be just as hard, but for some reason they terrify me. Thank God for you, Timothy, because you bring a smile to my face and give me a reason to keep going when I just want to fall apart. 

I can't stop thinking about how much I wish I could see your Dad hold you, and laugh at your adorable laughs and smiles. I know he is doing so from heaven, and I know he loves you and is so proud of you. 

I love you always and forever little man!
Love, Mama

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

4 Months Old 2/26/14

Four Months Old
Dear Timothy,
I can't get over the fact that you are 1/3 of your way through your first year. How did that happen?! 
In your fourth month we were pretty busy, and did a lot of things!
We brought McKinley hiking (when it wasn't too snowy or cold), we went snowshoeing for the first time, we started a couple of bible studies, and we started going to Mommy group. Mommy group has been so much fun, and you love seeing your friends! 
This month we also had our 4th anniversary, which was hard for me, but we got snowed in with your Auntie Nora, Uncle Joe, and Clare which was perfect. We spent the day snuggling in our jammies and watching movies.
We also went to NJ with some of Mama's college friends, and you got to meet Henry for the first time! It was a lot of fun!
You have really started playing more this month, and love reaching for toys. You work so hard at moving your little body, and are practicing noises! I'm pretty sure you even started teething, as you drool constantly and put EVERYTHING in your mouth! 
On the day you turned four months, we had your 4 month well visit and you did so great! Everyone at the office loves you and your smiles! You were 25 inches long (50th %), 14 lbs 6 oz (25th %) and your head was 16.5 inches (25th%). You also got four shots, and a few days later got the oral vaccine. You were so brave, and didnt get nearly as sick as your two month shots!
Little man, you quite simply make me smile, and I love you to pieces Lovebug!


Thursday, February 6, 2014

3 Months 1/26/14 (A bit late)

Dear Timothy,
You are now three months old! It has been a very busy month for us, and we spent most of it hanging out in your Mama and Dad's hometown with your grandparents. At the very beginning of your third month we went up to New Hampshire and relaxed by the fire and went cross-country skiing with the Iorfinos. It was a good trip, and you and Miriam were mostly amazing in the car except for the very end of the car rides. You had your first cold, and had trouble eating and sleeping, but otherwise did a great job! 
After coming home, we got ready for
NYE - we decided to have a Chopped competition and it was a ton of fun, minus our poor little pup getting hit by a car earlier in the day. Thankfully, McKinley is doing amazing now and can even go for walks again! 
We spent the first few weeks of 2014 hanging out with your Aunt Sarah and Miriam. You even rolled from your belly to your back for the first time on 1/8/14! I was so proud of you little man, you worked so hard and did it all on your own. You also giggled for the first time, which is one of the most incredible sounds I have ever heard!
Finally, we headed back to our house and settled back in. It's been a tough transition, but you help so much. I love spending time with you, and seeing all the things that you are learning. I especially love our snuggles during your naps!
This month we also joined a few small groups/Bible studies that have been really helpful for Mama, and all the ladies just love you!
Thank you bubba, for being you. I love you so very much!
Love, Mama

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

2 Months Old 12/26/13

2 Months Old
Dear Timothy,
You had such a big month my little love bug! 
At the end of November you celebrated your first Thanksgiving. We went for a walk with Mimi and Papa, went to dinner with Mama's family, and then stayed over Grammy and Grandpa's house. It was Mama's first holiday without your dad, and it was difficult for me - but having you around made it a little happier.
We also went and got your first Christmas tree with Auntie Lisa and Uncle Chris and Auntie Nikki. You love looking at the lights at night. 
We celebrated my 30th birthday. We went out to dinner with Mimi, Papa and Auntie Lisa the night before. The day of we did some shopping and had lunch with Grammy, and then Auntie Nora and Auntie Emma came over and brought dinner for us. The day after, Uncle Peter and Auntie Katie took us out for dinner. I usually love my birthday, and I did enjoy spending time with everyone, but I really hated that your dad wasn't here to share this milestone with me. It also really hurt to be a different age that Tim will not know me as on earth - it makes me so sad every time I think about that. 
You also celebrated your first Christmas - we went to two ornament exchanges, sang Christmas carols at the nursing home, hung out with Mama's best friends, made the Christmas soup, spent time with family and friends, and did out best to enjoy the season. Once again it was very hard for me, and I found myself tearing up all the time. It just sucks that your dad isn't here for all of this fun stuff!
Finally, we started your second month with your two month appointment where you got 5 shots and one oral vaccine. You screamed, but settled down pretty quickly afterwards. Your pediatrician says you are very healthy and growing perfectly - you are 11 lbs, 7 1/2 oz and 23 1/2 inches long! The day of your vaccines you slept a lot and cried every time you woke up, and barely ate. Your fever reached 100.5, and you had some very impressive spit up. I was very glad to have Auntie Nikki and Auntie Emma around to answer questions and make me feel more comfortable. I even called the on call pediatrician, I guess I am a bit of a paranoid first time mom. Unfortunately for you, you woke up the next morning still feeling off from the vaccines, and with your first cold! This was just in time for our four hour drive to New Hampshire - but of course you were such a trooper and only cried for a bit toward the end of our trip.
Other milestones:
Smiled for the first time! This is by far my favorite! My heart is so happy that when you see me you often smile. It is quite possibly the best feeling in the world.
You have also started cooing and making more little noises to express yourself.
Your hair is starting to become more like your Dad's...definitely getting more of a reddish tint.
You have grown out of newborn clothes (so sad!) and are almost out of 0-3 as well, depending on the brand.
You met a lot of new people! You finally got to meet your Auntie Sarah, Uncle John, and cousin Miriam (you love seeing her!), your Auntie Colleen and Uncle Rod, Uncle Adam, Auntie Alex, and many more! You are one blessed kid to have so many people that love you! 

I look forward to seeing how you grow in the next month! I know your Dad is smiling and enjoying watching you grow from Heaven!

I love you always and forever,

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

One Month Old 11/26/13

I can't believe that Timothy is one month old already! The time has seriously flown by and I feel like he has been with me forever! I have decided to write him monthly letters about what is going on in our lives so that I can keep track of everything!

Dear Timothy,
The first few nights at home were challenging because you were cluster feeding from around 9-1, and I was simply exhausted. Thankfully, Auntie Lisa took you a couple of times for a little while so that I could get some sleep. Since then, the cluster feeding has toned down but night time is still challenging. Little man, you are not a fan of sleeping on your back and want to instead sleep on me, which I have given in to so that I can get some sleep! Typically at night you sleep for 1-2 1/2 hour stretches, so my sleep has really suffered but because I am able to rest during the day it hasn't been too terrible. Either way, it's been so worth it to snuggle with you!

We have had a ton of visitors, and many wonderful dinners from people. You have been able meet many of Mama and Daddy's friends and a lot of family as well. You are really good with people and love to be held.

We have ventured to your pediatrician two times, and you have done well both times! The first time you had gained an ounce since the hospital at 4 days old so you were 6lb,11 oz. They also did a heel prick to draw blood for a jaundice test which thankfully you did not have. You did scream bloody murder during that time and made Mama sweat like crazy - hormones! Your second appt at 2 weeks old went well also. You are a very healthy boy and gained back your birth weight plus some and weighed 7lbs, 14 oz. Since then, according to the scale Mimi got for you, you are up to 9lbs, 1 oz. Little man, you are an eating champ! 

On that note, feeding is going well and you eat every 1-4 hours (usually around 2). You are only fussy when you are hungry or gassy. This whole nursing thing is a lot easier than I thought it would be, although it has moments in then middle of the night that are challenging. I have even fed you in public several times now, in restaurants and in shopping parking lots!

We have gone out to get frozen yogurt, dinner 4 times, church, and shopping. We are very fortunate that you are a good little one and as long as you are fed and changed you are as happy as can be to go out. 

Auntie Lisa has been staying with us and has been an incredible help! She basically does everything around the house so I can just focus on you. I hurt my back with the pup one day, as well as from giving birth so I have been a little less mobile than usual (going to a wonderful chiropractor that has helped!) I don't know how we would have gotten through this first month without her! Thank you Auntie Lisa! And of course the rest of our family and friends that have helped out so much as well!

In the first month you have also:
Started tummy time 
Your umbilical cord fell off
Have had 3 sponge baths and one tub bath
Have had several poop and pee blowouts, but the two best were the projectile poop that shot 5ish feet across the room!
You can hold your neck up for long stretches
You are really strong!
Have had your nails cut several times because they grow so fast 
Turn your head when you hear noises
Recognizes my voice
Follows close objects with your eyes 
"Smile"occasionally in your sleep
Don't love getting changed
Make the sweetest and funniest noises and faces - my favorite noise sounds like a horse neighing and my favorite face is your Cheerio face.
Took a couple trail walks in the BOB

I'm so incredibly in love with you, little man. You have brought so much joy in the short time you have been with us. We miss your Dad so much, and I know that will continue to but I see him in you every single time I look at you, which is amazing. 

I love you always and forever,

Tim, you would be so thrilled to hang out with your son! He's such a love and makes me laugh. I wish you were here to hold him and be a family with us, but I know you are still with us in whatever way you can be and I know you love him and me. I can't wait until we all get to be together again, but in the meantime I will do my best, with God's grace, to raise him to be a Godly man that loves the outdoors and is kind and good and a great friend - just like you are babe! Thank you for giving me this gift before you left to do greater things in heaven. I love you!
One Month Stats

One Month Photo Shoot

McKinley wanted to participate

Mama/Little Man Snuggles

Friday, November 1, 2013

Timothy Reeves Jr.'s Birth Story

Birth Story
On Friday evening 10/25, when I was 39 weeks, I decided to clean the whole house top to bottom since I was having a friend over the next day. My stomach started to hurt a little bit, but I chalked it up to something I ate or overexertion. After having some dessert and relaxing, I finally got settled in for bed around midnight.
At 2:30 in the morning I was woken up by some strong cramps, that I was still thinking may have been from something I ate (denial much?) After about 1 1/2 hrs of noticing that the pains were consistently about 10 minutes apart, I decided that I was probably having contractions. After having a brief meltdown that this might really be happening and how much I really wanted Tim to be there with me, I called Nora at about 4 to tell her I might be in labor. I then called the midwives and they told me to try and get some sleep and to call when the contractions were between 3-5 minutes apart and lasting for a minute. I did my best to sleep but was excited/nervous so I really couldn't. At around 6:30, I called Nora again and we decided the birth team would come meet at my house. I took a shower and got dressed and waited. Lisa arrived first, being called from work - then Sarah Kate and Nora. After forcing down a bacon, egg and cheese and an apple, we decided that perhaps going for a walk would help. It was a gorgeous fall day, and that sounded like a nice thing to do. We walked a mile total, stopping for many contractions along the way. On the walk, the contractions intensified and got closer together. After arriving back at home, we tried to have a snack and watch some television but the contractions started to get much more difficult to get through and we started discussing going to the hospital. After getting all of my stuff in the car and trying to eat a little snack, I said goodbye to McKinley and climbed in the front seat with a garbage pail and a blanket. Other than some tough contractions, the car ride was uneventful and we immediately headed to Labor and Delivery. I was brought into a room and got dressed in the outfit I was planning to labor in. The nurse hooked me up to the heart rate and contraction monitors and asked me what felt like a million admission questions which are awfully hard to answer when you are in pain. After that Kathy, the midwife, arrived to check how far along I was. I was at 4cm and I think it was around 1pm. I have to say I was hoping I was farther along but was still feeling pretty good. 
I then decided I wanted to labor in the tub, which was an awesome idea. Before getting in, they made me use the bathroom and I lost my mucous plug. I then went in the tub and ended up being in there for an hour or so. It was pretty funny though, because I needed to be on my knees during a contraction, half my body was almost always out of the water and the bubbles needed to be turned off because the hot air was making me nauseous. At this point during every contraction I needed to squeeze someone's hands and have someone putting intense pressure on my lower back. SK took over the back for the majority of tub time. Donna, my doula, also used a shower head to put water on my back the whole time. I often was resting very heavily/dozing in between contractions. Throughout the tub time and all the other positions that followed, Kathy was able to use a fetal heart rate monitor to check and see how the baby was doing, and every time the heartbeat was nice and strong (although I barely recall hearing it, I just remember people telling me to listen to it)
After a long time, I was getting too cold in the tub so I decided to get out. They wanted me to use the restroom at that time and I had several fast and intense contractions while in there. That was one of my least favorite labor positions but it did help progress things - Kathy checked me right after and I was between 7-8cm . This was really good for me, because I had bargained with myself in the tub about getting an epidural and I told myself that if the next time I was checked I am farther than a 7 I won't get one, but if I'm only a 6 it would still be an option. It wasn't an option.
Donna then suggested I try the birth ball (essentially a yoga ball) which I really liked. I stayed there for awhile before they made me use the restroom again, and again those contractions were terrible - and when I got out my midwife wanted me to try a few contractions standing up next to the bed and squatting during them - let me just say for the record that this was NOT FUN! The wonderful thing about Kathy was that every time I had a super intense/really long/really hard contraction she was so encouraging and said how awesome that one was because it was helping things move along faster.
After a few standing contractions I went back on the birthing ball and while I was there I felt some liquid start to trickle and said that I thought my water was breaking. They had me get on the bed to check me again and while there I had what I think were the worst contractions of the day - but I was 9 cm, almost 10. There was just a little bit left! While I was being checked my water broke in full force. Kathy had me wait through about 6 more contractions before giving me the go ahead to push because she wanted to make sure the cervix was totally out of the way. 
Finally, Kathy told me I could try pushing with the next contraction. After the first try she explained to me exactly how I needed to push and after that I think I was good to go! I got about 2-3 pushes per contraction. I pushed for about 25 minutes total. Pushing, while incredibly intense, did not hurt quite as much as contractions did for me. I was really out of it between pushes and got really emotional. I wanted to give up, but knew I couldn't - I used to get like this when hiking big mountains with Tim, we would always be almost there and I would be DONE. Tim was always so encouraging, and my birth team was amazing during my labor! 
At one point I felt and heard a pop and when I asked Kathy what it was, she told me I popped my coxxyx bone. 
All through my pushing Kathy was laughing because the baby was really moving and wiggling themselves into position - she said she had never seen anything like it. Finally, the little one started crowning and it got majorly intense then! I was really focused and pushing with everything I had and I heard Kathy yell "Jessica! Stop pushing!" And she made me focus on her and she told me to push just a little, and only when she told me to. She saved me from having much worse tearing. All of a sudden, the head came out, and then the rest of the body, and then the baby was on me and everyone was asking if it was a boy or a girl! I was so overwhelmed with emotions just seeing this precious baby, and then I looked and saw that we had a boy and I just melted. The room was in tears of joy and happiness. After waiting a bit, I cut my own cord and the little man got to snuggle closer and was eating like a champ in no time. I was given a couple of stitches for a few 1st degree tears which were not bad at all.
Timothy Reeves Hine Jr. was born at 7:48 PM on October 26th, 2013 (6 days early from my due date, but only one day from my original due date).
He weighed 7lbs, 1oz  and was 19 inches long. 
One of the very first things we did was listen to Daddy's voice on the elephant. It was a wonderful and difficult thing for me to do, but so so special for Timothy. I know Tim would be so incredibly proud of his little man. He's simply perfect, a little warrior prince for sure.
The family and friends in the waiting room were told with a video message from me. Mimi and Papa, Grammy and Grandpa, Uncle Alex, and Uncle Chris and Aunt Nikki were all there.
Timothy had a bath because his temperature was a little high (probably from ring on his furnace of a mom) and then after getting him cleaned up, me cleaned up and a little food, we were taken to a post partum room where he got to meet everyone.

Friday, October 25, 2013

39 Weeks, ONE week til my due date!

How far along? 39 Weeks, 1 week until my due date!
Total weight gain: I don't want to talk about it...39 lbs...ugh
Maternity clothes? Yes, and some of those shirts don't fit...and pants are getting a little tight, might be due to the massive weight gain
Stretch marks? No new ones
Sleep: Waking up every 2-3 hrs, but otherwise pretty well. I'm so tired all the time at this point.
Best moment this week: Getting the nursery pretty much all set up - with gorgeous bedding, drapes, and chair courtesy of my Dad. My parents have really helped out setting it all up! Clare's baby dedication, meeting with my birth team ladies, dinner with my family and bro's new gf, dinner with Susan and Peter, and most of all hearing Baby's heartbeat! I just love it! 
Miss Anything? Tim. The closer we get to this little one being here, the harder it gets. Being able to move easily.
Movement: So much lately! Especially during the day.
Food cravings: Peanut butter, candy corn, milk and cereal, spicy food again 
Food aversions: OJ and tea
Gender: Don't know, and won't know until the day the bean arrives! 
Labor Signs: Some Braxton hicks, starting to "feel" a little different, not quite sure how to describe that. Kind of crampy?
Symptoms: Tired, really sore hips when I walk, shortness of breath, super emotional, heartburn, sore back, pretty sure I'm waddling. 
Belly Button in or out? Pretty much out
Wedding rings on or off? On.
Looking forward to: Seeing Amy this weekend, neighborhood party, and seeing my cousins...and the fact that this munchkin could come anytime
Feelings? Mostly excited, anxious and sad 

39Weeks...feeling really large today!