26 Weeks, 6 months - How are there only 3ish months left?!

How far along?  26 Weeks, 6 months!

Total weight gain: 15 lbs as of last appt.

Maternity clothes? Yes, all pants. Some of my regular shirts still fit.

Stretch marks? No new ones

Sleep: Ok, waking up 2/3 times a night

Best moment this week: Dinner & ice cream with the Perreaults, hanging out with Nora, fro-yo with a former student (who gave Baby H a Mickey Mouse), Getting my new car!

Miss Anything? Tim. So very much, all the time.

Movement: Yes! This is an active little one!!! Some days are more active than others. Getting more consistent now.

Food cravings: Goldfish, ice cream, summer foods like corn on the cob, fruit (loving watermelon and peaches) Still mostly into carbs, but can eat a more balanced diet lately! :)

Food aversions: OJ, tea, not a fan of chicken, will eat it though

Gender: Don't know, and won't know until the day the bean arrives!

Labor Signs: Nope, thankfully 

Symptoms: Really tired, heartburn again, very emotional

Belly Button in or out? In...getting flatter though

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Looking forward to: My oldest friend, Amy, is getting married tomorrow! Nora is coming with me, and I'm looking forward to seeing other friends from high school. 

Feelings: Had my 1 hour glucose screening test this morning, here's hoping I pass so I don't have to do the 3 hour!

 Been another rough week for me. Really missing Tim all the time. It's just so hard. I'm doing my very best to trust in God's plan for our life now, and looking forward to spending eternity with him!

Taken at 6:30 AM before my glucose test...hence the dark circles

25 Weeks

How far along?  25 Weeks

Total weight gain: 15 lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes, mostly all pants (although some leggings fit), and some of my regular shirts fit too (not many!)) - loving dresses with this dang heat wave! 

Stretch marks? No new ones

Sleep: Ok, waking up 2/3 times a night

Best moment this week: Lunch with an old coworker, ice cream with Nora and Clare, chatting with a friend from CO, making a huge decision!

Miss Anything? Tim. So very much, all the time.

Movement: Yes! This is an active little one!!! Some days are more active than others lately. Last night, the baby kicked while I had a cup on my stomach, and the cup moved! So funny!

Food cravings: Goldfish, ice cream, summer foods like corn on the cob, fruit (loving watermelon)and grilled everything! Still mostly into carbs, but can eat a more balanced diet lately! :)

Food aversions: OJ, tea, not a fan of chicken, will eat it though 

Gender: Don't know, and won't know until the day the bean arrives!

Labor Signs: Nope, thankfully 

Symptoms: very hot! Super tired this week.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Looking forward to: Buying my car tomorrow! Eek! Very excited/nervous about this big decision. Good news - it's big enough for McKinley, and the BOB stroller!

Feelings: Starting to get a big freaked out about labor. Can't believe I only have 3 1/2 months left. Cranky from the heat. In a bit of a better place emotionally - rereading Have Heart has helped my perspective. 

24 Weeks

How far along?  24 weeks, five and a half months

Total weight gain: 15 lbs, thankfully the gain has slowed :)

Maternity clothes? Yes, mostly all pants (although some leggings fit), and some of my regular shirts fit too, but not all.

Stretch marks? No new ones

Sleep: Ok, waking up 2/3 times a night...lots of dreams

Best moment this week: Going out on the boat with my cousins, volunteering at VBS, coffee with an old friend, getting pedicures and lunch with Nora, and hearing the little ones heart beat! 

Miss Anything? Tim. So very much, all the time.

Movement: Yes! This is an active little one!!! Some days are more active than others lately. I find the more I am active, the less I feel the baby.

Food cravings: Goldfish, ice cream, summer foods like corn on the cob, fruit, and grilled everything! Still mostly into carbs, but can eat a more balanced diet lately! :)

Food aversions: OJ, tea, not a fan of chicken 

Gender: Don't know, and won't know until the day the bean arrives!

Labor Signs: Nope, thankfully 

Symptoms: Very tired, very emotional, occasional heartburn, sometimes trouble breathing, bad back pain

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Looking forward to: Seeing some more friends in the coming week.

Feelings: It has been a bit of an emotional roller coaster week - I had to fill out pre-admission papers for the hospital, which was NOT fun (some fun things included on that were marital status, spouses name, emergency contact, next of kin) 3 months ago, I would have filled that form out without even thinking. Instead, the silly form sent me into a tailspin of sadness and frustration that I have to think about such things now. 

On the other hand, I once again was shown how amazing people can be, when an old friend and I met for coffee and she presented Baby Hine and I with gift cards that she had accepted for us instead of birthday presents for her son. Incredible.

Also, I had a dream about Tim the other night where I finally got to talk to him (I dream about him a lot, but can never talk to him). I asked him if he knew this baby, and he said yes! It was an answer to prayers because it is something that I have been praying a lot about over the last several weeks.

3 Months

It's been 3 months today since Tim went to Heaven. Every single day feels like it is a challenge for me to breathe, but some days are even harder than others. This is one of those days. I came across this song today, and thought I would share the hope we have that we know we will see Tim again!

"With Hope"

This is not at all 

How we thought it was supposed to be

We had so many plans for you

We has so many dreams

But now you've gone away

And left us with the memories of your smile

And nothing we can say

And nothing we can do

Can take away the pain

The pain of losing you

And we can cry with hope

We can say good-bye with hope

'Cause we know our good-bye is not the end

And we can grieve with hope

'Cause we believe with hope

There's a place where we'll see your face again

We'll see your face again

And never have I known

Anything so hard to understand

And never have I questioned more

The wisdom of God's plan

But through the cloud of tears

I see the Father smile and say 'well done.'

And I imagine you

Where you wanted most to be

Seeing all your dreams come true

'Cause now your home

And now your free

[Chorus]

We have this hope as an anchor

'Cause we believe that everything

God promised us is true

[Chorus]

We wait with hope

And we ache with hope

We hold on with hope

We let go with hope

By: Steven Curtis Chapman

23 Weeks

How far along?  23 Weeks

Total weight gain: 14 lbs - although I'm not sure about that, going to Dr. on Tuesday!

Maternity clothes? Still just leggings or  maternity jeans or shorts can wear regular tops for now - most are starting to get tight, I'm most comfortable in maternity clothes or sundresses.

Stretch marks? No new ones

Sleep: Ok, waking up 2/3 times a night...it's just so hot!

Best moment this week: hanging out with the Burkes for 4th of July!

Miss Anything? Tim. So very much. This week was a rough one.

Movement: Yes! This is an active little one!!! Some days are more active than others

Food cravings: Goldfish, ice cream, summer foods like corn on the cob, fruit, and grilled everything! I'm also like veggies again mostly, woo hoo!

Food aversions: OJ, tea, chicken

Gender: Don't know, and won't know until the day the bean arrives!

Labor Signs: Nope, thankfully 

Symptoms: Very tired, very emotional, occasional heartburn, soooo hot, sometimes trouble breathing 

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On.

Looking forward to: Going on my cousin's boat tomorrow (trying on bathing suits pregnant is quite an experience, FYI) and my appointment on Tuesday,

Feelings: REALLY struggling with adjusting to this new life I'm having to live. I miss Tim so much, and hate that he isn't here.

23 Weeks! 

And just for fun, a 7 week comparison