Dear Timothy,
Today you are 5 months old. I am kind of in shock, because for some reason this 5th month of your life truly flew by - must have been our first vacation together that made it go so quickly!
We had a big month little man, and I loved every minute with you!
We spent a night having pizza with Uncle Chris and Aunt Nikki, and they loved snuggling with their favorite little guy! We also got to hang out with Uncle Nate for a bit, and that was a lot of fun!
We then left on your very first vacation, to Colorado! I have been so excited to bring you to the place that your Dad and I made our first home together after we were married. It was such a special time for us, and we loved our life out there so much - I loved being able to share that with you, our son.
After waking up VERY early, we headed to the airport for your first flight! Unfortunately due to a very minor plane issue, we had to de board and ended up having a 4 hour delay. You were such a little trooper and did a wonderful job even though it ended up being such a long day for you! In what can only be described as a God nod, our pilot was the dad of a childhood friend of mine and we spent some time with him during our delay. It was so nice to have him as our pilot, because your Mama is terrified of flying and it made me feel much better to have someone that I knew up there! Finally, we took off and you pretty much slept, ate and played for the whole flight. You did, however, pee through TWO outfits and therefore had to wear only a onesie until we got our luggage! Before we left the plane, we got to take pictures with you in the cockpit wearing the captains hat! So fun!
We went straight to Mama and Dad's very favorite brewery in Boulder, Mountain Sun, to celebrate your Dad's birthday. All of our wonderful friends came to be with us, and it was so much fun! Auntie Emma even had them rename a beer the Hoppy Hiney Amber Ale in honor of your Dad. It was such a sweet gesture, and I am sure he was smiling! I'm so grateful to our friends for helping us celebrate Daddy, because it was a difficult day for me. I miss him so much, and wanted so badly to be able to make him a birthday Rice Krispie treat cake like I used to. Instead, we were able to be loved by our friends, meet Baby Jack (the sweetest little new friend of yours), and eat good food and drink great beer.
We went back to Colleen and Rod's and finally were able to get some rest after our very long day!
Over the course of our trip we:
Had amazing homemade lattes courtesy of Rod
Had amazing homemade dinners, wine, and cocktails courtesy of Rod and Colleen
You rolled from back to belly on our first day
Took walks with Auntie Lisa
Hung out with Alison, M, and E
You and I visited the Valmont bike park where Dad taught me to mountain bike
Hang out with the Paisleys
Amazing meals at Oak
Spend time walking on Pearl Street on beautiful 70 degree days
Hang out with Auntie Emma, Uncle Adam, Baby Jack, and fam
Hang out with Auntie Sarah and Miriam
Go to church at All Souls, our old church and have lunch with Lora and the Bohnets
Lunch with Lora at Avery
Quality time with Colleen, Rod, and Janie
And probably the biggest thing for Mama, you and I hiked Anemone. You see, little man, Anemone was the first hike your Dad and I did on our own when we moved to Colorado. It quickly became our favorite local hike, because we could walk there from our apartment. It was a beautiful hike, with views of the continental divide. Your dad and I used to go at least once a week, and we spent so much time talking about our future on those hikes. We had such wonderful plans - for ourselves, for our future family, for YOU. Hiking there with you Timothy was wonderful, emotional and hard. Dad should have been able to do that in person with us. It completely sucks that he wasn't able to be there with us. I could almost see him holding you as he climbed up that beautiful trail, smiling and just enjoying time with his son. It was a powerful time for me, and I cried, so so much baby boy, but it was such an honor to take you there. I can't wait until we can go back there, and go back to Coloado.
After sleeping your way through our entire flight home (and crying through the whole car ride from the airport), we were back! I was happy to be home, but I wild be lying if I didn't say it was super hard knowing we were coming home and your Dad wouldn't be there.
Other things that you did this month were:
Discovering your feet
Got your second cold, and gave it to me!
Are going through a growth spurt, because your sleep has been difficult!
Went to the nursery at church for the first time for 25 minutes
And I left you for the first time for 35 minutes. It felt like an eternity! I really don't like leaving you, even for a second, but I know it is good for both of us!
Mama also made the decision, with lots of prayer, that it is time for you, McKinley and I to try this whole family thing on our own. It is going t be lonely and hard, but I know we can do it with God's help, and I'm sure your Dad is looking out for us too!
The next few weeks, they are going to be tough my sweet little warrior. We are going to have to lean hard on our amazing God to get us through. I know that the days after the one year mark are going to be just as hard, but for some reason they terrify me. Thank God for you, Timothy, because you bring a smile to my face and give me a reason to keep going when I just want to fall apart.
I can't stop thinking about how much I wish I could see your Dad hold you, and laugh at your adorable laughs and smiles. I know he is doing so from heaven, and I know he loves you and is so proud of you.
I love you always and forever little man!
Love, Mama
